A letter on 10 days before result

                                Hello guys!OMG!we(ex-2010 spm's candidates) just have about a week and three days before the day comes.the day that we have to take our SPM result.I am so freaking out to think about this.I am getting freezer and feeling so weak!thinking about this make me sick!arghhh!!I can't neither imagine nor guess how is my result?!is it good?better?bad?OMG!please help me....please grant my wish!T_T
                                Now,I always and keep thinking about this.can I make my mum happy?can I make my dad    feels proud with me and cries for my "maybe a successful" result?owh!!!!I am going to faint to think about this.I am dying about SPM.god please help me!!you are the most merciful!owh....I feel like my sould has gon now.just my body is here,but not my soul.It travels alone,leaving myself..how are my friends?are they okay?or are they getting fever too?just like me?my Godness,this sounds really creepy than seeing a ghost~~.I wish I can just be chill but I total;ly can't and cant imagine if i can do that.urghh!!!it's better if I am going to suicide than suffering like this!huhu.but,no no no and no way!I have to stand still,as long as I can breath!!!!I am not going to make such fool thing either now or in the next time!!I am still sane.lol.either by hook or by crook,I have to go there(my school),taking my result!my guts isn't small! I have to be brave!!but not bold!but no....I can't.this makes me so weak!I am going to faint again and again!(T_T)
                                what about my classmates?I wish they will be fine,not freaking about just like me.it's enough if I am the only one who freaks out waiting for the result,with a own "guts".but I am so afraid to meet them in school.maybe I should just be careful with my steps so I will not meet them...??no no no!they are my friends,though I am not their friend.who cares?I love all of my friends though how hurts they have hurt me.friends will not care for what their friends have done to them.but a friend is all about having someone who we can share everything,doing everything together,talking to everytime without any reasons.right?wow!amazing?am i saying this?lol.wait!what if I meet thee??what should I do now?hiding from thee?run from thee?or shall I greet thee like I am so close to thee?just like,"hello there,how are you?how's your result?".or maybe,"hey dude!long time no see ya!miss ya!!"like that?OMG!I will never ever able to do that cause i'll be shutting my mouth up as i meet thee.great habit right?lolololol.anyways,hopefully March 23,2011 will be my most beautiful moment ever,the happiest day ever I have! :)

A letter on dilemma~

                                Hello readers(not mine)haha.happy one morning and happy one country to you all guys.I am now,so tired.I went to the city to buy my pin number to fill my information for "Maktab Perguruan" or in Englsih,we call it College.i have to fill it as my mum wishes me to be a teacher and she wants me to teach English.so,i am in dilemma.that is because,first,I love Chemistry and I think if I become a teacher,I want to be a Chemistry's teacher.just like her,my Chemistry's teacher.she's so great and totally amazing!I admire and adore her.she's has inspired me to be great in science stream.she's always telling her students to b a great one.be smart based on what you just understand and remember and has learned.never be smart based on what you have read!cause it will bring nothing for your future.(KINDA).LOL.actually I don't remember what is the most suitable phrase for those things.haha.oh,my fisrt reason for why I am so dilemma is,my real and ever ambition is to be a SCIENTIST!great scientist just like avicenna but i want to be a scientist in Chemistry Course.or maybe teaching in Chemistry.but I have to get at least A- for Chemy and Addmaths!OMG!!!!!I am not so into addmaths.and just a moderate level student in Chemy.T_T.but,that will never ever stops me to be a scientist!I will try as long as I am alive!God,please help me!!!!!guys,pray for me!!!T_T
                               Now,I have to read again my chemy's book for my sake.who knows,if one day I am chosen to cont my study in Chemistry Course,then holding my ambition to be a scientist..so,i have and really-really have to have the basic of Chemistry.what about addmaths?my sister said that in University,in chemy course,I just need to focus on Chemy,Physics and math mode.so,I guess i can cover them all.LOL.but sorry for addmaths cause I will never be good and excellent in addmaths(give up).T_T.after taking my lunch,I think I want to read some in chemy.so,i will not forget anything.LOL.okay now I recalled what my teacher has said to us.she said that first thinking will not help us to a an excellent one.but SMART thinking helps us at all times.but,if you use both way of thinking,so,I think that you are the smarter one.because,you think your fisrt thinking,I mean,explore it more,then,you'll gain such smart ideas which is coming from smart thinking!:).so,to those who want to be a scientist or have such a big dream,be wise while thinking and making a conclusion!Good Luck!;)

a very complex to understand letter~

                                Hi  and hello there..again!LOL.tonight is a very lonely night.I am just alone in my room,writing this posts while listening to the musics.I love listening a song while finishing something just like my homeworks,worksheets and so on.but,for the sake of my eyes,I have to minimize the power of the screen,I mean the light..it can hurt my eyes.yeah!maybe because my eyes are sensitive.I mean,it able to damage my eyes.hey......talking about eyes,I recalled the lyric of bella luna,a song that was sung by jason mraz..it sounds like this,"a pair of eyes,a chosen one"..very beautiful song.lovely and i love it so much!you know what?when I hear the song,I feel like I am meeting a my soul mate.lol.this is serious!we must help it~~OMG!I am not one of the wonder pet cause i am human.lol.but I love mostly the hamster.it looks so cute and brainy.actually all of them but the hamster is the most.lus,I love hamster.miss my hamster.lol.
                               9 days left before my birthday.lol.Im so excited waiting for my birthday.but i dont know what's gonna happen on the day.T_T.are friends wishing my birthday?is anyone sends me a gift?maybe special gift?lol.will my special wish as my birthday gift from God be granted?everything is playing in my mind frequently.i keep on thinking about that though i really-really do not want to think it.like one says,"sometimes we're not controlling our world,but our minds controls it".but,if we wanna make our world to be the best world ever,we must know the rules.rules how to control our world.because we're the creations,so,we rule our world,not the world rules us!understand?if you dont,just ignore this.I am not a president to rule your world,reading and trying to understand this.lol.by the way,if you feel stress after reading this,do not be panic,just listen to any songs that you like.haha.*not related again*haha.

a letter before checking my blood~

                                Hi there,my readers(do I have?)haha..today is a very beautiful day..a group of bird is flying in the sky freely.some on the land are enjoying their breakfast.sounds lovely right?:D.i am so happy because i have managed my blog.hey!look at it,does it look like a very haunted paper?haha.this blog looks like it is written by a romeo who have dead.having a good day with a cup of Milk and a plate of cream puff has made me so happy.this world has became so marvelous..to me,especially.haha.i love cream puff.do you know what is that?it looks like a rolled puff with a very creamy margarine in it.so,it is so tasty and delicious!ahhhh.come here and join me so you can taste it.but i am just giving you one bite.HAHA.I love to eat cream puff and totally gonna be crazy when I see it in market or where ever.then,feeling sad if I can't buy it,and enjoy my days eating it.haha.
                                 my day is still the same.boring at all day.-.-".I wish i can travel the world now.hey!I have got ten days yet before my birthday is coming!!haha.you know what?I wish my besties,my friends on Fb are wishing for my birtday.huhu.then,i wish i will have a very special gift from God.:-).I really-really wish for these things on my birthday.i am no longer celebrating my birthday since I was 13 year-old-boy.but i miss those moments so muc and wish i can feel it again~!huhu.okay.this is just a wish.I never dream that it will come true.only God knows it.OMG.I got fever since the result will be coming soon.hopefully it will be my best result ever which can make my parent feel proud with me!!:'(..oh,I'm going to check my bood type in the nearest clinic on this afternoon.wish me okay.(this doesnt make me freak out okay)..haha..errmm..that's all..thank you for reading this post..LOL

correction for my silly mistake!

sorry for the very silly mistake that i've done tonight!if you wanna check yours,just click HERE .I wish you good luck guys!

A letter in a foggy night 2!

this is what I've got after checking mine!try yours before you loose your fans!wish you luck guys!
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A letter in a foggy night!

                                arghh..this foggy night makes me tired!!!urghh!!!actually,I wanna do something other than FB-ing,blogging and others but health stops me to do so.so,I am just online~lol..btw,I am looking for something....i mean,application that can be used to make-up my blog so it will looks soooooo good.LOL.OMG!I never dream to have more than hundred readers of my blog~!...meaningless~okay~haha.stop laughing now!the most important thing is to look for an application that can be used to make my blog looks cool!!!just like real ghost application or something else?does anyone has a great idea?help me please!I have stalked my friend's blog and theirs are awesome!!!!i am so jealous with them..I am not such a great blogger boy!!
                               who cares?haha.this is me,this is my life.my life live who I am.so,I am not going to be others.I love something haunted,just like grave,ghost,supernatural,magical,unique,mystery and has artistic effect,artistic value and so on.for example,something that is coming from the past time and looks haunted,such as an old mansion.when we hear that,we'll be imaging an old house,leaved by old folks,old generations or maybe they have died.and now they are waking again to live there,staying there and look after their lovely mansion!LOL.does it sound creepy?haha.has anyone seen something like that?haha.maybe?who knows?for example,there's a mansion in America which was told by peoples that there were ghosts living overthere,in the house and the most luck one will be able to see them,walking in their home sweet home without cares anyone at their surrounding and sometimes they play with anyone who lives with them,in the house.okay,this scares me a lot because I didn't switch the lamp on.okay,it was broken.LOL.okay.finished about the scary apps!
                                 now,Im going to talk about the speed of our websites!I've to talk about this seriously because this can damage others(not related)..haha..this is my result :

A letter on 1:13PM~

                                Very good afternoon to everyone.lol.just like a speaking in front of public.haha.okay,today,something has changed~~~erm..that is the web counter!haha.yeah!by a "little night",the number rose up from 90+ ,and now,I got about 105 audience.that's so marvelous?does it?haha.maybe someone is viewing my blog so many times but who cares,I love viewers but I hate haters.haha.okay,I am going to be nuts again.I am wondering.do i have any audiences from other countries,such as..er..wherever!huh!I can't think any countries while enjoying something I never had and now i got it.haha.erm,okay,that's so idiot to celebrate for getting more viewers.haha.
                                what's the matter with the ghost app in my blog?actually,i tried to look for a very haunted app.maybe the one looks like facing the sorrow,or maybe something just like dead romeo application to put in my blog,so,it will looks little bit haunted.haha.did anyone know where to find such apps?I was so dizzy to look for it for 24 hours,sitting in front the pc,lappy just to look for it.that's so ridiculous!haha.
                                 another things are,I was thinking what shirt to be wore while taking the result soon?OMG!the senior assistant of student affairs of my school has told us to wear just like formal cloth.lol.just like ball dresses.haha.so,i have to get ready with some formal cloth..OMG!I feel like I dont want to go there.this freaks me out!okay!plus,i think my hearbeat will not let me go there,taking the result.maybe someone else is going for me.huhu.plus,i am still wondering when is the real date to take the result.OMG!"riyan,why dont you just ask for you auntie?she's working with ministry of education of Malaysia in BPHS.so,maybe she knows that".NO WAY!I never greeted her before,plus,I didn't add her yet on FB.so,maybe I can ask his son a favor about this but,no no no.haha.got so many reason why I cant talk to him.I dont know how to tell him.maybe he will be yelling at me.urghh!I am going to eat anyone who is yelling at

a letter on 1:20 A.M

                                Very goodnight to you guys.haha.I keep smiling while viewing my "paradise-look alike" blog.haha.paradise?haha.I don't think so,actually.but just like you get into a sorrow,full of darkness.grave?that's my blog's background.LOL.nobody is going to the grave,because no one has true guts to join those spiritual creations.they said no but yeah,they are going to live in there,until the earth come to its end.Am I right?I mean,until the world is meeting hereafter.
                                 Actually,this is not what I am going to talk about.but about the ghost apps that I have put in my blog.I have put those apps in my blog because I think it is cool!I think so,just look around it,there are bats,darkness bats and ghost~~wuuu~~~this is sooooo haunted and these apps make this blog looks so haunted.haha.but not so really,because the ghost looks so "innocent",not haunting the viewers.LOL.but its okay than to you haunted sound or true ghost image.I wonder that I will not have any audiences of my blog if I use those things.haha.okay.I am so sleepy now,plus,my room got no lamp,I mean,it's come to be malfunction!what a jerky thing!cant read and cant do anything that is need to use the lamp.what gas is used to make this lamp?LOL.okay.I have nothing more to say.so,hope you will enjoy reading this post and please do lik

a letter after a letter :(

                                Today,I am so emotional.okay,not just for today but for seven days.LOL.I am in sadness for almost a week.haha.do you know why?the first thing is,my heartbeat.you know what?sometimes it beat so vigorously,sometimes its chill and sometimes so slow.sometimes I unable to breath and hurt on my chest.but I tell no one*avoiding from being sent to the ward.haha.*.you know what?since these seven days,I got sleepless nights.because I keep thinking and wondering,either there's more tomorrow to me or not.so way now,while pressing this keyboard to write newest post in my blog.It hurts,just like was stabbed with a pencil-shaped wooden timber.I am not joking okay.this is serius.haha.yeah,it hurts so deep until sometimes,I think that I will not have my next seconds.-.-".
                               the second things,it's all about the message that I have sent to a friend of mine in class,and friend of my friend in FB.huhu.actually,I have sent a letter to thee which I was seeking his forgiveness for every wickedness that I have done to thee,hopefully thee will read it,feels what I feel and will forgive me.but I think it just a hope that brings nothing to me.I hope,there's a stair of hope,hopefully when I climb it,my wish will be granted but thats just in fantasy.haha.I mean,thee reply me nothing about the letter.like Malay has said,"sepatah haram,sunat,makruh,wajib,harus pun tak balas".haha.its okay.I know who I am.someone just like me can't be a good friend to anyone just like when I was a kid.i miss my childhood besties~!they are so cool and great!though one one them is younger than me.but,their smiles made me happy.keeps me away from sadness and melancholy.huhu.argh!in a nut shell,I dont have any idea about what thee is thinking about me.but surely thee hates me so much!!huhu
                                  anyways,thee,i am so sorry if for every faults that I have done to you and hopefully you will do forgive me.you know what,I have wished that you are one of my firend or bestie(LOL) but that's ajust a HOPE okay.haha.okay,now I think I am going to bge nuts again.haha.anywyas,thanks for being my friend.kamsahamniida!!!

A letter to jerky~!

                                Dear,someone who doesn't know anything.I'm telling you something.IF you don't know us,so,I wish you to stop commenting us.say anything once when you are so into us!or,if you still do that,I will call you fool,retarded!come on,one says you are leader but not for my friend who is as same as your race.I think you look so retarded than a very silly ***.I don't want to make an untruth story.but you make me to write bout your story.a very unbelievable story!so,stop doing that jerky job if you want to keep your name safe!we are who we are and we have right to do whatever we want to as long as we're still in our place.but,you are not more than just a guest,maybe a special guest.but,you commenting like a very good judge~that's so retarded to people just like you are!you,yourself who makes your reputation down!because you talk like an ******!do you put your brain on your marrowbones?shit!
                                 You are th one who suppose to look yourself in the mirror,not us!is that the way of a leader?you aren't but just a fool,yeah.so,you shall speak like that!bastard!you and your pal are just the same!you both are retarded!I hope that I can stop saying that word but I can't and totally can't!urgh!!fools like you don't have to talk!fools like you should be in the jail now!or in somewhere that we'll never reach there!I wish you will never reach here anymore or in front of us!please never expose yourself in front of us!we hate you,cause you didn't respect us!such people you are!talking about you just make me to freak out.so,I think it's better if I stop now and just forget bout you.I wish you get the punishment soon!God is fair!that's all.take your word back or experience those punishment!

A letter on 05:00PM~

                               Dear God,why I'm not him in her life?why not me who makes her happy all of her seconds?why not me who suppose to give her a "banquet" of LOVE?why not me who suppose to care about her all day?why him and not me?can't we live together?I know.I'm not good looking at,not a famous one,not a clever one or good one for her.but,why can't be anywhere for her?why him?I'm so tired to think about this but will never forget it!I know that I'm not him to love her.I'm not him to say "ILY" to her and ask for her hands.but,can't she just forget about him and choose me?I know,I'm not as rich as him so I can't buy her a banquet of flowers,or a very tasty "cadbury",or..maybe spend her a very delightful candle light dinner.but,she never look into my heart,I guess.maybe I'm just a friend for her and not more than a friend.
                                The real story is,today,she has greeted me on Facebook.I'm so happy because I thought that she has forgot about me.that's because she removed me before and now,she added me again.I keep lauding her though she's pretending about it,I mean,she's pretending that she's not beauty whereas she's exactly beauty.anyways,I don't look a girl just based on her looks,but also how she behaves herself.but,finally,I came out from that simple chatting.I have told her that if she's not pretty,no way to be one's belongs.I talk about her ex.then,she said that she was played by her ex.she decried herself for loving a guy who doesn't love her.then,I asked her if had she forget about him,then,I got the answer.she just said,"hehehehehehehe".a very meaningful smile because that's too much for me to know that she had not forget him yet and yet,she's still love him.but,just,he never love her and maybe never!because he's too blind to see her love.her sincerely love,love that makes me hurt.yeah!it hurts me sooo much and I'll never pretend about it.why can't she just foregt him and choose me?I'm not hoping that she will love me because LOVE is God's secret that only God knows it!I have told her that I love her but,who knows,she's not my mate or soul mate.maybe,I suppose to just let her go,loving his mr.right!plus,an adage,IF YOU LOVE SOMEBODY THAT'S NOT YOURS,YOU SUPPOSE TO LET HIM/HER GOES AND CONTINUE THIS LIFE HAPPILY.plus,a malay adage,"BUNGA BUKAN SEKUNTUM,KUMBANG BUKAN SEEKOR".LOL.
so,If your love failed,don't give up,there are more love,that's unexpected,waiting us to come for them.

A very late letter

                                Today,there's nothing happened.I mean,yeah,there's something but not much.just like watching some dramas,talking with my cousins.that's so great to me mostly to relief myself from boringness and pain!but,there's n great dramas exactly cause my dearies family like to watch some dramas but those were not Malay movies.maybe yes,they were but not soo much!on 3rd of Feb 2011,my best cuz went home.he had gone to his home at KL.so,now,Im alone again!LOL!
                                 but,I had a good story of mine,I was greeted by one of my classmate just now.we're not so close but enough to say that we're good friend,not a close friend nor a best friend.but,i was so happy because at least,I knew that my friends still remember me.I wasn't lost in their minds yet~^_^.but,we're not talking for a very long time.but,that's enough to me and thanks to him for holla me just now.Im so appreciate it!really-really appreciate it!I miss you my friends!^_^!but,I really regret because I couldn't talk like who I am with you just now.I had tried to be myself,talking like they talk to each others.I mean,we were not using "aku,kau" but just using "name language".****!I acted so fool!I am so regret and sorry for not talking just like who I am.I had also tried to talk in Kelantanese Language but failed.but,hopefully one day I can use them all and can be the first to talk with.not be greeted by them,but I will be greeting them.hopefully.hope this isn't just a hope.but a hope that will come true or truly come true.sorry guys for making all of you disappointed.what kind of friend I am?I keep wishing but never tried to make it true!I am a bad friend!my Goodness!!what I suppose to do now?help me and help us!or maybe just hep me!(!_!)

letter again~!

I recognized something about my blog,i mean,my post..LOL..there's something wrong especially bout those posts..err..yeah..I told you..LOL..i mean,something Im "so syok" while writing in English until I get into "Syok Sendiri"..now I realized..no one is perfect at all..even the greatest supermodel n the world..cause loveliness didn't make one to be perfect..same goes to me..after I read my posts again,I had found that there are soooo many grammar errors..one of those errors that I mostly recognized and hate was the title of one of my post...that was "A NEVER UNDLIVERED LETTER"..see that?LOL..that shame a lot!coz it supposed to be "a never DELIVERED letter"..LOL..coz when I put "un",it will be "undelivered" and that will change the meaning..LOL..

my Goodness..that made me so weak!

fools!that's why I never ever dream to be a teacher,or in specific way,an English teacher as my mom wish..cause I know,I,myself isn't good in English..so,how to teach "my students" in English?maybe I can write,and talk,but I am not a good English listener..cause I'm....not like other normal peoples..I'm weird...totally weird..plus,I think my appearance will not help me to be a great teacher ever..students wont obey to me,my instructions..LOL..

dear mother,I hope you will understand me..to be a teacher or lecturer isn't my ambition...but,to be a great scientist my ambition,real ambition,forever!cause Im inspired by avicenna,the greatest scientist ever!

a letter on morning~

ari nie agak awal aku bangun..aku bangun pada pukul 5..aku pun hairan asal tetibe awal gile bai aku bangun..mungkin sebab mimpi semalam tak best kot..mimpi sedih jer..isk3...kesian..kesian..kesian..

tapi.....erm..nak citer kat korang pun,,aku tak berapa nak ingat ngan mimpi tu..aku tak ingat aku gie mana atau apa yang berlaku sepanjang mimpi tu..

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wahhh...sedeyhnyer biler kite dah takde kawan yang nak sembang ngan kite an??kalau ada pun,takleh jumpa,hang out sebab dorank duk jauhhhhhh sangat,erm...tak la jauh sangat..Terengganu jer..huhu..tapi,ape boleh buat..aku nie rapat tahap cipan nak mampus ker ngan classmate aku???duhhh...aku tak taw la dorank ade TERbace ke tak belog aku yang sememangnya tak professional nie..huhu..adakah classmate aku fikir yang aku tak suka dorang and now am forgetting them all by posting nothing on the class group's wall?if they're,I will say that they are sooo wrong!I love them even they hurt me a lot..I miss them even they dont miss me though for a second..I want to meet them although I will just shut when Im facing them and they never wished to meet me again..I love my classmates tak kira klasmet dari skolah kat klantan or skolah kat terengganu..all of them make me happy and "leave" away my probs~!but,I'm who I am..so,please never asked me to cange my behaviour...I'm just trying to behave myself in school so peoples wouldn't negative thinking of me as a student..plus,a student supposed to behave themselves,right?in addition,I used to be who I am since I was a kid..maybe one says  Im weird..but,who cares?this is me,I am who I am and will never ever trapped in someone's attitude..

Richard Barch has said,

"your only obligation in any lifetime is to be true to yourself.being true to anyone else or anything else is not only impossible,but the mark of a fakes messiah"

forget this if you dont get it..LOL..

anyhow,miss you my classmate!!!:)

*xtaw la sejak bila aku berani cenggini...HAHAHA...

d0odle???

err..pelik ke kalau aku buat doodle?ala,orang lain boleh buat,takkan aku takleh..hahahahha..straight to the point jela...
ekceli(bahasa mana ntah).....aku de buat satu lukisan..aku panggil doodle walopon orang tengok bende tu sebagai lukisan,sketch or ape2 jela..
tapi,d0odle aku tu tak siap lagi..tapi ia tentang perasaan yang "melanda" diriku sekarang..hahahahhahahaha!
sengal!

~g0od muslimah~

.a letter for my future love.

this post isn't about anyone but every girls.

.....

it doesn't mean to hurt,but,to advice..

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but just for the brightness of our future....

dear girls,

what do you say about LOVE?what do you think about LOVE?can you buy a it?can money brings it to you?can  how we look buy a love?that's totally wrong thinking.some girls say that love at the first sight isn't better.but,do they ever think that love isn't truly the best one if you judge just on appearances?looks?

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wahai wanita ,makhluk Allah yang indah,


jika kamu mencintai aku kerana paras rupaku,penampilanku,hartaku,maka janganlah kamu mengharapkan suatu kata keramat daripadaku.janganlah kamu mengharapkan agar hatiku bersatu denganmu.


tetapi,sekiranya engkau memandangku dan mencintaiku kerana:


1)Agamaku
2)Ilmuku
3)hatiku


maka engakaulah selayak-layaknya seorang cinta buat diriku...keran,jika itulah pandanganmu terhadap diriku,aku yakin bahawa engkau wanita yang:


1)menjaga agama sperti solat,menajaga batas pergaulan dan auratmu.
2)memanfaatkan ilmumu seperti mampu membawa pasangan hidupmu ke siratul mustaqim.
3)mempunyai hati yang sangat mulia seperti menghormati aku sebagai lelaki, dan ketua,selain mampu menyayangi usrahku seperti engkau menyayangi usrahmu.


justeru,jika pandanganmu terhadap diriku adalah selain daripada ketiga-tiga perkara itu,maka,lupakanlah aku.ini kerana,paras rupa bukanlah sesuatu yang harus diutamakan dalam mencari pasangan hidup.

a story on jan 27,2011~

why?why?why should I face this risk?should I be dismissed?should I walk alone?this is not fair to me!why?what makes you to hate me?what makes you to blame me for everything?why should my life ruin?why should I get diseases?why should I stand for two years of lonely?why should I just shut?why should I just see you played around me?what makes you to ruin my life?what?you didn't ruin it?so,who,then?

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today,I went to the school to help teachers decorate the library.I had drawn some sentences on the corridor.but,I came early to the school and was alone with no one there,to accompany me.then,I read the newspaper.after that,a Chinese boy came to me.he asked me why I was there and I answer him briefly.er?whatever.then,the teacher came and she asked me to do some jobs that was to draw something  on the corridor.I was finishing it until the recess time of lower form.at that time,there's a very familiar girl and is a librarian came to librarian.she brought a flower pot and the flowers are soooo beautiful.she asked me to confirm wether i had forgot her or not and the answer was I totally knew her.in the same time,another librarian guys came to the library.one of them came to me and asked for my neck tie as I was no longer using that neck tie.LOL.

can I skip my story?anyways,I had met aina and aqila.they had told me that I was different for a lil bit but i think maybe because my hair is longer.then,a boy came to me.I knew him because we had joined a camp of Red Crescent Society on 2009.I met him at that time and I wasn't knowing him as a malay boy yet.he looks like a Chinese or maybe albino for bits.other than that,I also met the school's best student.he is younger than me but smarter than me.LOL.he is one of the mysterious boy ever I met.LOL.oh,I also never thought that there's form 4 students of 2011 knows me.LOL.then,I called my dad to go home.before my dad reached there,I saw someone.another mysterious boy.he went to pick his motorcycle.I noticed something that was....forget it!LOL.lastly.I met someone.thee biked thee's motorcycle.at my first sight,I didn't  notice who was that as I am a short-sighted person.but as thee came nearer to me,I found that was thee.I was shocking!I freaked out but who knows,I'll always look cool so no one will notice what I feel.LOL.but it's not a happy story,but,it hurts me a lil bit.that's because he never looked at me though we're just facing each other.or maybe thee noticed me,but.thee seemed like thee didn't like that moment.I know and always know who I am.

dear "thee",please never ever hate me. . . . . . . .

a never undelivered letter~

Dear My Classmates,


Greetings,how are you guys,girls?hopefully all of you are always fine.how do you spend your days after "retired" from school?I'm sure that some of you have applied for a job and working.am I right?actually,thats not my point for why I write this for you guys,girls.I,definitely,want to apologize for all of my wrong doings toward you guys,girls.I'm sorry for not being friendly to you.maybe I had but you just didn't recognize it.never mind.but,I'm totally begging you.please,if you can't forgive me,at least,please never hate me.I hate myself cause I never tried to be a good friend,classmate for you.I'm sure that I'm the worst friend ever,right?I never ever became a great friend to you.I'm not a good classmate,indeed.


I have tried to be friendly,talk to you,share something with you,share feelings and do whatever a friend supposed to do but I have failed to do those things!Actually,the reason why can't I be friendly to you is I do not know how to talk to you.I'm always wishing that one day,I will be a good friend to you,talk to you,doing things that a good friend does like while I was in my old school in Terengganu.I miss that moment.my friend and I went home together,we talked in class,helped teacher,played,shared something,did homeworks,discussed and a lot of things.and until now,we're still connected to each others.but,why can't I do that to you guys?


guys,now,I'm into in klantanese language for lil bit,though i can't write in klantanese yet.but,its enough to get what are you saying and able to reply you in the same way,in klantanese.right?another problem is,I unable to talk like why I am.I mean,my polite way of speaking makes you uncomfortable to talk with me,right?I'm a different one in school and home.I'm a 'good' boy in school,using "awak,saya".yuks!but in home,in FB,out of school,I'm using "aku,kau,mu".I used to be like that.so way when I'm talking to my old friends.except when I'm talking to a girl.I will spontaneously use "awak,saya" but in some case or if the girl starts it first,I'm sure I will use that.LOL.


I don't know either any of you will read this post or not.or maybe no one will,but it enough to relief me from pain.but,I hope,you guys,please never ever bait me,hate me or dismiss me!a friend in need is a friend indeed.yes!I'm not a good friend.you guys asked me to ***** but I refused.that doesn't mean that I hate you,but,I'm just avoiding myself from such thing.no such thing in my life,ever!I don't know your houses,so I can't go to your house to talk or share or doing anything.I don't have your phone numbers,so I can't text,keep in touch with you.I do have only a lil bit of guts,so,I will shut when I'm facing you.In short,I'm not a good friend.


class,actually,I wanted to apologize in the last days of school,before we were sitting for the examination.but,I didn't have courage to do so.that time,you were playing,cheering,enjoying cause the school will ends up.some of you went home earlier.but I was waiting.waited for my turn to talk,apologize..but I had failed!totally failed!maybe I look like a cruel one.but in fact,I love all of my friends,either thee are my old friends or my new friends.I don't know how to face you when we meet soon on march,to take our results.I'm so freaking out about everything.at last but not least,sorry for troubling you in my illness.talking about my health....forget about it!every of creations will return to the CREATOR one day.right?anyways,I wish you enjoy your lives!

boring=bosan=boring!

boring is bosan..
bosan adalah boring..
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
eh..ape kejadahnyer aku hari nie..melalok jer..err..aku borink giler..ade gak aku merepek,merapu,melaluk,me...me..me...ape-ape jela dalam bahasa planet marikh kan~~
tak pasal-pasal nanti saintis dari Rusia datang temu ramah ke..kaji aku er..hahahaha..tapi..femes jap..macam budak rusia tu..ala..yang dakwa diri dia berasal dari planet marikh tu..the one who told the world bout the past,the mars,peoples of mars and so on..he's really into space..he told the world about everything..and nama dia agak pelik..so,.....aku x ingat!hahaha..kalau tak silap aku,nama dia boriska..kalau korang nak taw sangat,take a look kat youtube laa..korang tulis boriska or borischa : discover the mars,or boy from mars or whatever that is related....huhu..
oh yeah!sekarang aku lapar..my mum cooks nasi ayam!!!oh my dearies friend "juju"...i will eat nasi ayam today!hahaha..macam ayat budak darjah satu jer..hahahaha..ishh3..macam la aku terer sangat BI..hahaha..ermm..aku bosan..takde apa-apa  aku nak buat sorang-sorang kat rumah..kalo ade kawan kan best..tapi,aisseyh..aku tak kenal rumah classmates aku..maybe dorang je yang kenal rumah aku tapi aku tak and sesungguhnya aku tak kenal.hahaha..jahat tol aku an?isk3..maybe ade yang aku kenal..sorang je kot..tapi,takmau cakap meyh sape dia..and sorang lagi ialah budak kelas laen..yang sekepala ngan aku..hahaha..tapi,rumah dia agak jauh..aku pulak tak ambik apa-apa lesen lagi..kemalasan melanda kot..or aku nak berehat..dulu i've struggled everything for SPM..sekaang,its time to rest..lalalala..
semalam cousin aku ajak aku gi KB Mall..tapi..aku tolak..bukan tak minat..cuma,malasz nak tukar pakaian,making hair and berjalan..kalo aku boleh terapung kan senang..haha..tapi,Allah bagi kaki ni untuk berjalan an..so,kena la manfaatkannya.. :)
but not now..aku taknak gi mana-mana lagi..maybe lepas dapat result aku akan gi kot untuk beli apa-apa yang patut~~
kan best kalau best cousin aku boleh teman,sah-sah lewat kiteorang balik..lagipun,dia lebih mahir bab-bab pilih baju yang buat aku nampak agak "matang" KOT..hahaha..yela..tengok la baju-baju aku..semuanya agak kiddy..hahahaha..sebab aku tak suka baju yang kosong..satu lagi,kesemua warna baju aku hampir sama atau betul-betul sama..sebab aku suka warna hijau..so,thats why la aku ade banyak baju warna hijau..warna hitam pun boleh la kot..tapi aku just suka putih,hijau dan biru.tu je kot..hahaha..tapi kadang-kadang aku pakai gak baju warna laen macam merah ker,purple ke,hitam ke..aku suke baju itam putih..tapi tu macam ILUMINATI jer..huhu..tarak best maaa!!huhu..yang terbaru,kawan aku suruh aku pakai macam someone tapi aku tak rasa akan menjadi 100% punyer..huhu..lol..

kepada sasaper sahaja yang taw~~

Guys,errr..okay,this question is really outdated but,ade sape-sape tahu tak macam mana nak letak shout mix,shout box or however you would phrase that lil dim-wit?!lols~~

I call it like that coz it makes me trapped into daft thing!lol..i mean,yeah..i know how to put it in my blog but,how to register?err,,,is it registration is needed?so,then,how come?what is the next steps?i mean,to register?lol

im totally weak about this..i just know how to design my blog,put a song,write something in blog and put any widgets..but i totally dont know how to register for a shout mix..i tried but it's useless coz the result is failed!totally failed!

oh hey..look!there's no mimos here..coz i aint talking to my blog but to you,you and you!i mean,you guys who views my blog..please!help me!leave some comments!i mean,teach me!this is the only thing i dont know..actually i just wanna know..should i put my REAL NAME while registering for a shout mix?tu name yang diguna untuk leave something kat shoutmix ker?

aku melal0k,terlal0k,dilal0k,kelal0kkan!!!

Dear Mimos,


haha..kelakar bai~~~...dari semalam lagi aku dapat idea untuk post something yang agak exclusive untuk dipostkan hari nie..tapi an..mase aku buka jer laptop tadi,terus rase macam..erm..laen kali arh k0t post pasal benda tu..sebabnya...............sebabnya..entahla....darah gemuruh semakin tinggi,meningkat..erm..naik..ermm..ape2 jela bila aku nak tulis benda "exclusive" tu..actually,it's all about thee or whoever..i mean,i cant tell you now..maybe about two weeks later or on the next posts~~lols
oh,im feeling sad to remember about thee,thou,those,them or whoever!oh,i told you a lil bit..haha..that's not make a sense..lols..nanti la...korang yang nak sangat tahu tu bersabar jela..just wait..haha..erm..okeyh,aku taw..korang akan cakap.."SAPE NAK TENGOK BLOG KAU?"....haha..whatever laa..but im sure you guys who views my blog tengah fikir apa sebenarnya yang aku cuba untuk bagitahu kat korang..errr..cuba cerita..tak2..maksud aku,aku nak tulis nanti..erm..next post la maknenya~
tapi,wat mase sekarang,aku nak terus layan mimpi 4 jam aku tu yang sungguh pelik dan memghairankan serta penuh dengan tanda tanya yang sememangnya buat aku tertanya-tanya sehingga aku takleh nak tanya sesiapa~!hahahaha!jap-jap,aku rase nak tulis something la kat bawah nie..but,it means nothing..just suka and suka~!hahaha..




1. أنا أحبك


2. AKU SAYANG/CINTA KAU!!!!(mana2 jer yang orang rase sweet~!)


3. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!


4. 我爱你!!!!!


5. MAI TUMSE PYA KARTA HOO!!!(tak jamin betul)


6. SIUHANG OKU DIA!!!!


7. MAHAL KITA!!!!!


8. VOLIM TE!!!!!


9. VOLIM VAS!!!!


10. JE T'AIME!!!!
     JE T'ADORE!!!!!!!


11. AISHITERU!!!!


12. DANGSINEUL SARANGHAEYO!!!!!!!!!




errr..tuu jer k0t,,malasz aku tulis banyak-banyak..bukannya aku belajar semua tu..haha..untuk sape tu??entah!!untuk korang and korang and korang yang baca blog aku nie kot~! :) :P

sooooo lonely:(

no one here...so lonely..lols

asal?

asal aku suka tukar topik arh?


asal post aku tak sama ngan tajuk entry arh?


hahahahha~!


mengong t0l~!


gimme the answers~!


LOL!!!

cian aku~~~~~

Dear Mimos,


arini nasib malang menimpa diriku..aku taknak la cakap ape malapetaka yang menimpa diriku..it hurts sooooo much until sometimes I feel like Im soooooo different from others..aku sedih..dah la sejak akhir-akhir nie aku rasa sunyi..sepi..like a mr.lonely or more than him..haters are gonna laugh me loud~!orang-orang yang membenci aku mesti happy duk gelakkan aku bila baca post kali nie..yela..post nie tentang nasib malang yang menimpa diriku..arghhh~!dah la takde kawan nak cakap,sembang....my best cousin p0n still kat KL sorang and Terengganu sorang..dudes!korang da abis skola~~!sal tak datang sini arh?asyik aku jer gi rumah korang...korang?kadang-kadang jer datang..musim monsun pulak tu..isk3..


my dearies best cousin,aku rindu sangat-sangat ngan korank!sorang aku panggil omis sebab always kalah dalam monopoli and sorang lagi abang melayu sebab kau pernah snap yourself yang tengah smart-smart pakai baju melayu..hehe..tapi sumpah dudes aku rindu korang and boring giler sekarang tanpa story mory and gelak tawa dari korang yang kadang-kadang tu entah ape-ape..huhu..korang jangan la suruh,mintak,ask me or whatever you call it supaya aku gi jejalan kat umah kawan-kawan aku..ermm..ade ke classmate aku yang nak kawan ngan aku yang pendiam tahap dewa karma dalam kelas?jap...aku takde la diam sangat..abis tu,aku takde topik nak cakap ngan korang,so,aku diam la..huhu..aku takkan tibai topik yang aku TAK suka cakap..isk3..I dont have to be hypocrite in my life..kot..haha..ok,takyah la suh aku explain panjang2 benda yang aku AGAK blur..haha..


lagipun,korang tak tahu ke yang aku nie tak tahu kat mana rumah kawan-kawan aku?isk3..memang korang tak tahu sebab aku tak perna bagitaw...nak wat camner,bila korang datang sini,mule diam jer kita an..jadi dak baek for a while..tapi,last2,bila sorang dah start riuh,semue jadi "sakai"...hahaha..aku ingat lagi dulu korng semue baru sampai kat sini and korang senyap jer..macam rusa masuk kampung..tapi takdela sampai camtu sangat tapi lebih kurang arh..huhu..tapi tetibe omis bukak topik..last2 semue sibuk nak citer kisah masing-masing..aku tak tahu la korang berdua ingat ke tak lagi tapi tu la hakikat sal kita-kita jer..


my best cuzzies yang girl p0n aku rindu..eh eh..sapekah itu?haha..ade la..pendek kata,kitaorang ber6 yang sama um0 nie memang best cuzzies and sometimes menggilak~!but three of them are girls and oh!omis isnt 18 just like us..he is 17 on this 2011..tapi dia memang pandai wat lawak..yang boy yang rapat ngan aku ade dua atau tiga orang jer kot..adik aku tu adik..tak kira..haha..tapi yang girl ade la dalam...erm,..ramai gak la..tapi kalo nak kata yang bescuz tu idk la..semue sebenarnya aku layan sama rata jer..


tapi,my cuzzies,I miss you a lot~!!da lame tak keluar mana-mana ngan korang..omis dak bijak..memang agak susah sket..abang melayu lak masuk pusat tarbiyyah..aku?duk kat umah sambil menangisi nasib malangku....aku cry ker?takde la..just sedeyh..dah la takde kawan,kawan tak tegur..nak su au tegur,lambat lagi la c0z aku tak reti nak tegur orang..takde topik bai...takkan tetibe nak masuk topik aduan rakyat k0t..mengong nanti kpale kawan tuhh..haha..btw,sayanggg korang semue cuzzies aku~!harap nanti kite boleh jumpa laaaaa~!omis,aku rindu bila kau menggila-gilakan diri kau..hahaha...

lonely :(

after school :(

Dear Mimos,

my friends yelled me cause of "Dear Mimos"...but I dont care..they dont have right to stop me doing anything.,.lol..actually,Im soooooo lonely in my room without my lil brother..this room will turns to be noisy if he is here but he has to go to school..lol..so,Im here,alone,with no friends to chat and nothing to read..

when I was still in school as a student,I always hope that I will be done as soon as possible..but,now Im an ex-student,Im no longer goin to school,class and next receiving knowledges...but Im missing to experience it again..

lol..maybe yes..I can..I mean,in university that I will be goin to soon(kal0 ade rezeki la)huhu..but the classes will not be the same yet and so way the classmates...everything has changed!and in university,it will changes..a new life will be started,new friends will be gained and new syllabus will be introduced and learned..

an adage is true!some friends come and some friends go..in university,new friends will come to us and our old friends will one-by-one leave us..something that we have learnt has gone from our minds,while a new things will be absorbed by our minds.and.................what about teachers?are they will be forgotten by their kids?I still remember my teachers who taught me in kindergarten..she's a great teacher and always be patient with me..huhu..I hope that there's non of my teachers will be forgotten..it God wills..huhu..

then,how about my alter ego?can I meet them again?I have heard that if we're separating from our friends or whoever, we will meet again after 15 until 35 years later..I will missing my friends and my alter ego along that time...I will be wishing and hoping that God will gives me chances to meet them again..but,I dont know who I wanna meet soon..maybe someone that I missed a lot..or maybe all of my friends..only God who knows it..huhu..I miss you....whoever you are..and hope....hope to meet you again..soon,I believe it.. :(

mr.lonely

just like I am..I am sooo lonely :(

feeling on night~

Dear Mimos,


ishh..it sounds kiddy to say "Dear Mimos" for my post's beginning..but,who cares?this is my blog and that can be my TM.......erm..am I right?lols...


anyways..thats just to greet my dearies bloggie..haha..just like doggie but I have no dog as pet except cats and will not even keep a dog as my pet~!lol...anyways..tonight Im soooo lonely just like mr.lonely..actually aku rindu..rindu something,someone..erm.aku pun tak tahu apa atau siapa yang aku rindu..this truly sad song makes me turn into melancholy but I just dont know why..maybe I miss somebody or whatever..lols..


Dear God,please give me happiness and keeps me away from this feeling..I dont want to feel sad and get into sadness or something just like that..when a bright sun is hided by a group of cloud,it makes surround to look glum ..I totally hates this kind of weather..this makes me to unable to feel comfort all day..maybe my heart is true..Im missing someone but I just dont know who..maybe my old friend who havent keep in touch with me anymore..or maybe somebody else..God is the only who knows it..


I dont want this feeling..I dont need everyone to gimme empathize or sympathize or whatever they call it..I aint trapped into a really-really sad story..but just missing an anon or something that I has lost it soooo long time ago..anyways,only God knows my feeling...I hope one day I will have my own happiness just like everyone arround me owned it..or,maybe I miss my southron friend that I have met him on a mosque in terengganu before I moved to kelantan..lol..anyways,keeps praying to God hopefully my prob will be solved soon :)

my kaki sakit!!

Dear Mimos,

aduhh..mimos..kau taw tak?sakit giler kaki aku tadi..aku nak gi tutup pintu bilik,tapi,tiba-tiba kakiku tersepak ape ntah..aduyyai!!sakit giler..bukan kena bahagian yang tebal..tulang kakiku tu~!aku agak benda tajam tu..sebab sakit giiler..macam kena tetak ngan pedang samurai...haha..lepas terkena "serangan" hebadd tadi dari benda apa entah tadi..pedih si0t~!

tapi aku tahan jer..wat bodoh jer..haha..men should be strong!haha..agak lama aku duk pegang my kaki sebab sakit tadi..haha..lawak la..tu baru sakit kena barang kat umah..tal tahu la camner nanti seksaan di neraka..nauzubillahiminzalik~!kita sama-sama la doakan supaya kita terselamat dari seksaan api neraka..huhu..oh ya~!nie sakit biase jer..tak setanding ngan sakkit bila putus cinta,break up and so on..tu lagi sakit...sakitnyer macam hati dihiris dengan...dengan..ape-ape je la..tapi,lagi sakit hati ibu bapa yang terpaksa menahan sebak dek anak-anak yang dilahirkan dengan harapan untuk menjadikannya sebagai khairul-nas tiba-tiba menderhakai mereka...my Godness,..please bless my parent until hereafter and please,welcome them to your beautiful heaven :')..amin..:')

masterpices :)

Dear Mimos,


sebenarnya aku terfikir nak buat novel..haha..otak tengah banyak idea sekarang..tapi aku rasa malas..tapi aku kena buat!!!!sebab kata salah seorang professor yang pernah aku jumpe,dia jumpe aku dan kiteorang saling jumpe or whatever je la,kerjaya yang paling sesuai dengan aku ialah sama ada menjadi seorang sasterawan atau scientist!fuhh!dua-dua aku minat tu beb!!!haha..tapi kalau minat,semua kena cube an?belum cube belum taw..plus,an adage,"A rolling stone gather no more"..so,we have to try than never..it's better than being a lil kiddy  in a quiet,shut room..lols..okay,thats my own adage..haha.


apa-apa pun,guys,if you want to read my novels that I'll make,please feels free to take an overview after my extraordinary blog..lol..this is really-really simple blog right?I dont mind..like my friend has said,"simple doesnt mean that you are poor"..but to live a wealthy life with arrogant is absolutely to show that you are poor~!
damn!haha..plus,money will not bring us to heaven,but heaven will welcome those who has spent their money for good deeds :)


anyways,we back to our topic,about the novel that I'lll be writing about..haha..the novels is exactly about two teenagers who used to go to the sane school and hate each other..they will act like a kiddies and like cats and dogs whenever they meet...one day,they have found their love...who are their beloved one?and what will happens next?you will get to know the answer as the novel has done..haha..or you wil never c0z i dont know where should I  write it either on fb as notes,or tumblr or in this simple blog..lols..I think that Im goin to send it to Karangkraf or PTS..lols..

anyhow,hopefully that my dreams will come true..amin :)

my bestie:)

Dear Mimos


AKU SEBENARNYA SANGAT SAYANGKAN MY BESTIE NAMED AIN NASYIRAH MUSTAFA!!!!!SHE'S A GREAT AND FINEST FRIEND EVER~!


:)

alkisah inoue n masterpiece~!

Dear Mimos,


hari nie aku bosan...aku tak tahu pe nak buat...untuk malam nie la..hahaha..mimos..kau tak heran ke?yela..aku macam cakap ngan kau jer..hahaha..padahal kau tak wujud..maksud aku,wujud,tapi bukan sekrang..bukan kat tempat aku..i mean,not in my room or sooo whatever~!lol..erm...camne erk??kau sendiri faham-faham je lerr..tak kuase aku nak explain something that is not easy to be explained~lollolololol...


sebenarnya,aku AGAK happy,walaupun tak happy sangat,tapi agak happy la..hahaha..sebenarnya,hari ni aku secara tak sengaja komen gambar yang telah ditagkan kat aku oleh kawan kepada cousin aku..gambar penguin comel tengah tidur..memang comel bai!!!!!!!!!!si0t jer!aku ase nak makan je penguin tu..tak pun,mesin bulu2nye yang lembut selembut softlan yang sememangnya lembut untuk menjadikan pakaian lebih lembut...hahahaha..


sebenarnya,kisah yang seben0r-ben0rnye yang 'suwitebel' ngan tajuk post,entry or ape-ape je la kali ini cengginih!og ya...aku dah terang kat atas..haha..si0t jer..pastu an,aku komen la gambar tu..penTAG gambar tu nama dia Ryuu Inoue Kira(bukan nama sebenar..hax3)..tapi,lepas tu dia reply komen,pastu aku reply balik dan begitu selanjutnya sampai pukul lima setengah..hahaha..(saje taknak tulis nombor)lololol..tapi,thanks to the pic c0z daripada tu,aku AGAK rapat dengan dia..huhu..best jadi kawan dia..walaupun sometimes aku tak faham dengan ape yang dia tulis,tapi..tu sungguh comel:)


anyhow,you guys who read this post,please do not think about something -ve about us..we're just friend..not more than a friend..lol..aku suka jadi kawan dia sebab dia friendly,baik hati,humble and cam taw-taw je bila aku melawak and bila aku siyez..hahahaha...


oh hey!my dearies mimos,i almost to forget you..do not be sad..hahaha..mimos..kau mesti happy cam aku happy an?sebab aku yang me"wujud"kan kau kat belog aku nehh..hahaha..apa-apa pun,thanks to God for willing me to meet Ryuu Inoue Kira and let me get to know her more..anyhow,she is good in writing..she can be a good literary..and you know what?her great masterpieces has inspired me to make more masterpiece especially novel..lol..thanks ryuu inoue kira!:)