Very good afternoon to everyone.lol.just like a speaking in front of public.haha.okay,today,something has changed~~~erm..that is the web counter!haha.yeah!by a "little night",the number rose up from 90+ ,and now,I got about 105 audience.that's so marvelous?does it?haha.maybe someone is viewing my blog so many times but who cares,I love viewers but I hate haters.haha.okay,I am going to be nuts again.I am wondering.do i have any audiences from other countries,such as..er..wherever!huh!I can't think any countries while enjoying something I never had and now i got it.haha.erm,okay,that's so idiot to celebrate for getting more viewers.haha.
what's the matter with the ghost app in my blog?actually,i tried to look for a very haunted app.maybe the one looks like facing the sorrow,or maybe something just like dead romeo application to put in my blog,so,it will looks little bit haunted.haha.did anyone know where to find such apps?I was so dizzy to look for it for 24 hours,sitting in front the pc,lappy just to look for it.that's so ridiculous!haha.
another things are,I was thinking what shirt to be wore while taking the result soon?OMG!the senior assistant of student affairs of my school has told us to wear just like formal cloth.lol.just like ball dresses.haha.so,i have to get ready with some formal cloth..OMG!I feel like I dont want to go there.this freaks me out!okay!plus,i think my hearbeat will not let me go there,taking the result.maybe someone else is going for me.huhu.plus,i am still wondering when is the real date to take the result.OMG!"riyan,why dont you just ask for you auntie?she's working with ministry of education of Malaysia in BPHS.so,maybe she knows that".NO WAY!I never greeted her before,plus,I didn't add her yet on FB.so,maybe I can ask his son a favor about this but,no no no.haha.got so many reason why I cant talk to him.I dont know how to tell him.maybe he will be yelling at me.urghh!I am going to eat anyone who is yelling at
Friday, February 25, 2011
Thursday, February 24, 2011
a letter on 1:20 A.M
Very goodnight to you guys.haha.I keep smiling while viewing my "paradise-look alike" blog.haha.paradise?haha.I don't think so,actually.but just like you get into a sorrow,full of darkness.grave?that's my blog's background.LOL.nobody is going to the grave,because no one has true guts to join those spiritual creations.they said no but yeah,they are going to live in there,until the earth come to its end.Am I right?I mean,until the world is meeting hereafter.
Actually,this is not what I am going to talk about.but about the ghost apps that I have put in my blog.I have put those apps in my blog because I think it is cool!I think so,just look around it,there are bats,darkness bats and ghost~~wuuu~~~this is sooooo haunted and these apps make this blog looks so haunted.haha.but not so really,because the ghost looks so "innocent",not haunting the viewers.LOL.but its okay than to you haunted sound or true ghost image.I wonder that I will not have any audiences of my blog if I use those things.haha.okay.I am so sleepy now,plus,my room got no lamp,I mean,it's come to be malfunction!what a jerky thing!cant read and cant do anything that is need to use the lamp.what gas is used to make this lamp?LOL.okay.I have nothing more to say.so,hope you will enjoy reading this post and please do lik
Actually,this is not what I am going to talk about.but about the ghost apps that I have put in my blog.I have put those apps in my blog because I think it is cool!I think so,just look around it,there are bats,darkness bats and ghost~~wuuu~~~this is sooooo haunted and these apps make this blog looks so haunted.haha.but not so really,because the ghost looks so "innocent",not haunting the viewers.LOL.but its okay than to you haunted sound or true ghost image.I wonder that I will not have any audiences of my blog if I use those things.haha.okay.I am so sleepy now,plus,my room got no lamp,I mean,it's come to be malfunction!what a jerky thing!cant read and cant do anything that is need to use the lamp.what gas is used to make this lamp?LOL.okay.I have nothing more to say.so,hope you will enjoy reading this post and please do lik
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
a letter after a letter :(
Today,I am so emotional.okay,not just for today but for seven days.LOL.I am in sadness for almost a week.haha.do you know why?the first thing is,my heartbeat.you know what?sometimes it beat so vigorously,sometimes its chill and sometimes so slow.sometimes I unable to breath and hurt on my chest.but I tell no one*avoiding from being sent to the ward.haha.*.you know what?since these seven days,I got sleepless nights.because I keep thinking and wondering,either there's more tomorrow to me or not.so way now,while pressing this keyboard to write newest post in my blog.It hurts,just like was stabbed with a pencil-shaped wooden timber.I am not joking okay.this is serius.haha.yeah,it hurts so deep until sometimes,I think that I will not have my next seconds.-.-".
the second things,it's all about the message that I have sent to a friend of mine in class,and friend of my friend in FB.huhu.actually,I have sent a letter to thee which I was seeking his forgiveness for every wickedness that I have done to thee,hopefully thee will read it,feels what I feel and will forgive me.but I think it just a hope that brings nothing to me.I hope,there's a stair of hope,hopefully when I climb it,my wish will be granted but thats just in fantasy.haha.I mean,thee reply me nothing about the letter.like Malay has said,"sepatah haram,sunat,makruh,wajib,harus pun tak balas".haha.its okay.I know who I am.someone just like me can't be a good friend to anyone just like when I was a kid.i miss my childhood besties~!they are so cool and great!though one one them is younger than me.but,their smiles made me happy.keeps me away from sadness and melancholy.huhu.argh!in a nut shell,I dont have any idea about what thee is thinking about me.but surely thee hates me so much!!huhu
anyways,thee,i am so sorry if for every faults that I have done to you and hopefully you will do forgive me.you know what,I have wished that you are one of my firend or bestie(LOL) but that's ajust a HOPE okay.haha.okay,now I think I am going to bge nuts again.haha.anywyas,thanks for being my friend.kamsahamniida!!!
the second things,it's all about the message that I have sent to a friend of mine in class,and friend of my friend in FB.huhu.actually,I have sent a letter to thee which I was seeking his forgiveness for every wickedness that I have done to thee,hopefully thee will read it,feels what I feel and will forgive me.but I think it just a hope that brings nothing to me.I hope,there's a stair of hope,hopefully when I climb it,my wish will be granted but thats just in fantasy.haha.I mean,thee reply me nothing about the letter.like Malay has said,"sepatah haram,sunat,makruh,wajib,harus pun tak balas".haha.its okay.I know who I am.someone just like me can't be a good friend to anyone just like when I was a kid.i miss my childhood besties~!they are so cool and great!though one one them is younger than me.but,their smiles made me happy.keeps me away from sadness and melancholy.huhu.argh!in a nut shell,I dont have any idea about what thee is thinking about me.but surely thee hates me so much!!huhu
anyways,thee,i am so sorry if for every faults that I have done to you and hopefully you will do forgive me.you know what,I have wished that you are one of my firend or bestie(LOL) but that's ajust a HOPE okay.haha.okay,now I think I am going to bge nuts again.haha.anywyas,thanks for being my friend.kamsahamniida!!!
Saturday, February 12, 2011
A letter to jerky~!
Dear,someone who doesn't know anything.I'm telling you something.IF you don't know us,so,I wish you to stop commenting us.say anything once when you are so into us!or,if you still do that,I will call you fool,retarded!come on,one says you are leader but not for my friend who is as same as your race.I think you look so retarded than a very silly ***.I don't want to make an untruth story.but you make me to write bout your story.a very unbelievable story!so,stop doing that jerky job if you want to keep your name safe!we are who we are and we have right to do whatever we want to as long as we're still in our place.but,you are not more than just a guest,maybe a special guest.but,you commenting like a very good judge~that's so retarded to people just like you are!you,yourself who makes your reputation down!because you talk like an ******!do you put your brain on your marrowbones?shit!
You are th one who suppose to look yourself in the mirror,not us!is that the way of a leader?you aren't but just a fool,yeah.so,you shall speak like that!bastard!you and your pal are just the same!you both are retarded!I hope that I can stop saying that word but I can't and totally can't!urgh!!fools like you don't have to talk!fools like you should be in the jail now!or in somewhere that we'll never reach there!I wish you will never reach here anymore or in front of us!please never expose yourself in front of us!we hate you,cause you didn't respect us!such people you are!talking about you just make me to freak out.so,I think it's better if I stop now and just forget bout you.I wish you get the punishment soon!God is fair!that's all.take your word back or experience those punishment!
You are th one who suppose to look yourself in the mirror,not us!is that the way of a leader?you aren't but just a fool,yeah.so,you shall speak like that!bastard!you and your pal are just the same!you both are retarded!I hope that I can stop saying that word but I can't and totally can't!urgh!!fools like you don't have to talk!fools like you should be in the jail now!or in somewhere that we'll never reach there!I wish you will never reach here anymore or in front of us!please never expose yourself in front of us!we hate you,cause you didn't respect us!such people you are!talking about you just make me to freak out.so,I think it's better if I stop now and just forget bout you.I wish you get the punishment soon!God is fair!that's all.take your word back or experience those punishment!
Sunday, February 6, 2011
A letter on 05:00PM~
Dear God,why I'm not him in her life?why not me who makes her happy all of her seconds?why not me who suppose to give her a "banquet" of LOVE?why not me who suppose to care about her all day?why him and not me?can't we live together?I know.I'm not good looking at,not a famous one,not a clever one or good one for her.but,why can't be anywhere for her?why him?I'm so tired to think about this but will never forget it!I know that I'm not him to love her.I'm not him to say "ILY" to her and ask for her hands.but,can't she just forget about him and choose me?I know,I'm not as rich as him so I can't buy her a banquet of flowers,or a very tasty "cadbury",or..maybe spend her a very delightful candle light dinner.but,she never look into my heart,I guess.maybe I'm just a friend for her and not more than a friend.
The real story is,today,she has greeted me on Facebook.I'm so happy because I thought that she has forgot about me.that's because she removed me before and now,she added me again.I keep lauding her though she's pretending about it,I mean,she's pretending that she's not beauty whereas she's exactly beauty.anyways,I don't look a girl just based on her looks,but also how she behaves herself.but,finally,I came out from that simple chatting.I have told her that if she's not pretty,no way to be one's belongs.I talk about her ex.then,she said that she was played by her ex.she decried herself for loving a guy who doesn't love her.then,I asked her if had she forget about him,then,I got the answer.she just said,"hehehehehehehe".a very meaningful smile because that's too much for me to know that she had not forget him yet and yet,she's still love him.but,just,he never love her and maybe never!because he's too blind to see her love.her sincerely love,love that makes me hurt.yeah!it hurts me sooo much and I'll never pretend about it.why can't she just foregt him and choose me?I'm not hoping that she will love me because LOVE is God's secret that only God knows it!I have told her that I love her but,who knows,she's not my mate or soul mate.maybe,I suppose to just let her go,loving his mr.right!plus,an adage,IF YOU LOVE SOMEBODY THAT'S NOT YOURS,YOU SUPPOSE TO LET HIM/HER GOES AND CONTINUE THIS LIFE HAPPILY.plus,a malay adage,"BUNGA BUKAN SEKUNTUM,KUMBANG BUKAN SEEKOR".LOL.
so,If your love failed,don't give up,there are more love,that's unexpected,waiting us to come for them.
The real story is,today,she has greeted me on Facebook.I'm so happy because I thought that she has forgot about me.that's because she removed me before and now,she added me again.I keep lauding her though she's pretending about it,I mean,she's pretending that she's not beauty whereas she's exactly beauty.anyways,I don't look a girl just based on her looks,but also how she behaves herself.but,finally,I came out from that simple chatting.I have told her that if she's not pretty,no way to be one's belongs.I talk about her ex.then,she said that she was played by her ex.she decried herself for loving a guy who doesn't love her.then,I asked her if had she forget about him,then,I got the answer.she just said,"hehehehehehehe".a very meaningful smile because that's too much for me to know that she had not forget him yet and yet,she's still love him.but,just,he never love her and maybe never!because he's too blind to see her love.her sincerely love,love that makes me hurt.yeah!it hurts me sooo much and I'll never pretend about it.why can't she just foregt him and choose me?I'm not hoping that she will love me because LOVE is God's secret that only God knows it!I have told her that I love her but,who knows,she's not my mate or soul mate.maybe,I suppose to just let her go,loving his mr.right!plus,an adage,IF YOU LOVE SOMEBODY THAT'S NOT YOURS,YOU SUPPOSE TO LET HIM/HER GOES AND CONTINUE THIS LIFE HAPPILY.plus,a malay adage,"BUNGA BUKAN SEKUNTUM,KUMBANG BUKAN SEEKOR".LOL.
so,If your love failed,don't give up,there are more love,that's unexpected,waiting us to come for them.
Saturday, February 5, 2011
A very late letter
Today,there's nothing happened.I mean,yeah,there's something but not much.just like watching some dramas,talking with my cousins.that's so great to me mostly to relief myself from boringness and pain!but,there's n great dramas exactly cause my dearies family like to watch some dramas but those were not Malay movies.maybe yes,they were but not soo much!on 3rd of Feb 2011,my best cuz went home.he had gone to his home at KL.so,now,Im alone again!LOL!
but,I had a good story of mine,I was greeted by one of my classmate just now.we're not so close but enough to say that we're good friend,not a close friend nor a best friend.but,i was so happy because at least,I knew that my friends still remember me.I wasn't lost in their minds yet~^_^.but,we're not talking for a very long time.but,that's enough to me and thanks to him for holla me just now.Im so appreciate it!really-really appreciate it!I miss you my friends!^_^!but,I really regret because I couldn't talk like who I am with you just now.I had tried to be myself,talking like they talk to each others.I mean,we were not using "aku,kau" but just using "name language".****!I acted so fool!I am so regret and sorry for not talking just like who I am.I had also tried to talk in Kelantanese Language but failed.but,hopefully one day I can use them all and can be the first to talk with.not be greeted by them,but I will be greeting them.hopefully.hope this isn't just a hope.but a hope that will come true or truly come true.sorry guys for making all of you disappointed.what kind of friend I am?I keep wishing but never tried to make it true!I am a bad friend!my Goodness!!what I suppose to do now?help me and help us!or maybe just hep me!(!_!)
but,I had a good story of mine,I was greeted by one of my classmate just now.we're not so close but enough to say that we're good friend,not a close friend nor a best friend.but,i was so happy because at least,I knew that my friends still remember me.I wasn't lost in their minds yet~^_^.but,we're not talking for a very long time.but,that's enough to me and thanks to him for holla me just now.Im so appreciate it!really-really appreciate it!I miss you my friends!^_^!but,I really regret because I couldn't talk like who I am with you just now.I had tried to be myself,talking like they talk to each others.I mean,we were not using "aku,kau" but just using "name language".****!I acted so fool!I am so regret and sorry for not talking just like who I am.I had also tried to talk in Kelantanese Language but failed.but,hopefully one day I can use them all and can be the first to talk with.not be greeted by them,but I will be greeting them.hopefully.hope this isn't just a hope.but a hope that will come true or truly come true.sorry guys for making all of you disappointed.what kind of friend I am?I keep wishing but never tried to make it true!I am a bad friend!my Goodness!!what I suppose to do now?help me and help us!or maybe just hep me!(!_!)
Thursday, February 3, 2011
letter again~!
I recognized something about my blog,i mean,my post..LOL..there's something wrong especially bout those posts..err..yeah..I told you..LOL..i mean,something Im "so syok" while writing in English until I get into "Syok Sendiri"..now I realized..no one is perfect at all..even the greatest supermodel n the world..cause loveliness didn't make one to be perfect..same goes to me..after I read my posts again,I had found that there are soooo many grammar errors..one of those errors that I mostly recognized and hate was the title of one of my post...that was "A NEVER UNDLIVERED LETTER"..see that?LOL..that shame a lot!coz it supposed to be "a never DELIVERED letter"..LOL..coz when I put "un",it will be "undelivered" and that will change the meaning..LOL..
my Goodness..that made me so weak!
fools!that's why I never ever dream to be a teacher,or in specific way,an English teacher as my mom wish..cause I know,I,myself isn't good in English..so,how to teach "my students" in English?maybe I can write,and talk,but I am not a good English listener..cause I'm....not like other normal peoples..I'm weird...totally weird..plus,I think my appearance will not help me to be a great teacher ever..students wont obey to me,my instructions..LOL..
dear mother,I hope you will understand me..to be a teacher or lecturer isn't my ambition...but,to be a great scientist my ambition,real ambition,forever!cause Im inspired by avicenna,the greatest scientist ever!
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